>I must admit I have low self-esteem, but not as low to allow someone to insult me freely. Low self-esteem is not even that much of a good thing to have, is it?
Chapeau, well done, for acknowledging this about yourself. No, it's not at all good to have low self-esteem. But a lot of people do have low self-esteem. I did too at your age.
It's hard for other people to like and respect us if we don't like ourselves. It seems quite likely that your difficulty with appreciating yourself for the wonderful person that you are is sensed by your friend at some level and causes him to treat you so badly. That said, his behaviour is inexcusable.
I wonder if you're aware of why you have this low self-esteem. If you don't know, it's something you need to explore and get to the bottom of. A good therapist will be able to help you.
On a totally different subject, there's one thing I'd like to tell you: you write beautifully.
Chapeau, well done, for acknowledging this about yourself. No, it's not at all good to have low self-esteem. But a lot of people do have low self-esteem. I did too at your age.
It's hard for other people to like and respect us if we don't like ourselves. It seems quite likely that your difficulty with appreciating yourself for the wonderful person that you are is sensed by your friend at some level and causes him to treat you so badly. That said, his behaviour is inexcusable.
I wonder if you're aware of why you have this low self-esteem. If you don't know, it's something you need to explore and get to the bottom of. A good therapist will be able to help you.
On a totally different subject, there's one thing I'd like to tell you: you write beautifully.